Mike N

Jesus u said the greatest of all commandments was to Love God with all your heart, soul, & mind. I need help with that. . This is why I need your help. My life has been one of stagnation, loneliness, failure, sadness. Despite my prayer for help, it never truly has fully come yet. Like Solomon I've prayed for wisdom but not gotten any understanding. Call on me and I shall answer? Knock and the door will be open. Pls don't wait for me to get perfect before you answer me. I know God answers the prayer of a righteous man. But you also said when asked why you sat with tax collectors and prostitutes that, "Those who are well don't need a doctor". I'm not well. And I'm doing what you said would work. I'm coming to you and asking. Just be gently, will ya. Please be gentle and kind and help me to love you. I'm in my late 50s with no friends, no wife, no home of my own. I'm running out of money and health. No stamina. Brain damaged. Bad eyes, bad teeth, bad back, exhausted beyond belief. I can't even function and keep up to par with my peers. It's been a lifetime of broken dreams. How can I be fruitful if you don't empower me with stamina, smarts, gifts, skills, & open doors. No more hard lesssons and testing. I'm like a beaten camel with a cracked spine. You put any more load on my back and I'll break. Say I come across an abused shelter dog that growls, and snaps at people because all it's ever known in it's life was abuse and betrayal. And say I adopt it. But it misbehaves. I could yell at the dog and demand it love me, but that wouldn't work, It's already terrified and untrusting of people. Or, I could earn it's trust, gently, kindly, with love. That would work. Do that please, God. Do that with me, will ya?

Received: July 19, 2022